Oct. 12, 2003 - 6:41 p.m.

Like a fantasy I never thought could ever possibly come true, I have melted right back into my "family" and my loves life as though I was never left out. This weekend has been magical and quite surreal to be perfectly honest. I have had a chance to complete things I have neglected for a long time, as well as take a breath and relax for a day without having to worry about anything stressful. This is what has been mising, this has been the void that I have been struggling to fill for months and its finally feeling occupied once more. Waking up next to her and having to touch her just to make sure it isnt an illusion that she is in my bed, in her spot, next to me. All of my hard work and exhaustion is finally paying off and I am becoming the person she knew I was all along and I just didnt believe. I will never doubt her again. She truly is my soul mate and I truly believe we will make it and we will be happy.

I have dedication on my side and I have used it to succeed and conquer all those who stood in my way in the past. I have dedicated my life to myself and making it the way I want it to be and I am finally finding happiness. Life truly is a mystery and I will live the rest of mine to the fullest because 1 year ago I never thought Id be where I am now. No one really did, I think, aside from a few who knew me inside and out and they knew me better than I did apparently. Who am I to be questioning these forces and who am I to doubt that anyone can become someone. Thank you to all who have pushed me to become something worth having. And especially thank you to YOU. K... you are my inspiration and I love you all the more for it if thats even possible.

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